It’s early yet to expect to be able to tell whether or not pomegranates help in any way to control the tendency of fibroids to swell your belly. At the moment my stomach is very much swollen. So much so that I am feeling physical discomfort just sitting. It has been a very long time since my fibroids have caused me the kind of physical discomfort they’ve been causing me lately. But I have to be honest with myself. I have not been taking care of myself the way I need to be doing. I’ve been depressed and therefore unmotivated. I’ve gained a few pounds and that’s definitely a hugely contributing factor.
The fibroids and pomegrantes experiment
I’ve decided to have pomegrante in some form for the next 60 days. Today is Day 5. I’ve been eating pomegrante seeds and drinking pomegrante juice. I can only hope that the pomegrante juice I had my husband purchase at the supermarket is really is 100% pomegrante juice. It is wickedly high in sugar content so that’s concerning; but I haven’t been drinking it in excess. I’ve been having only 1 glass of it per day and not in one sitting.
The above pictures are of the pomegranate I consumed today. If nothing else at least I like pomegrantes so it’s not like I’ll be consuming something for 60 days while hating the taste. If it does nothing as far as the fibroids are concerned at least it will provide me with something to photograph and a nice snack to eat.
The depression
I’m not sure I can exactly identify what has caused me to slip into depression but I’ve been depressed and unmotivated for a while. I think it’s a combination of things. I think it’s the state of affairs in my relationship with my husband, and frustration over my inability to turn any of my projects into a source of sustainable income.
The weight gain
I don’t have a scale. I don’t weigh myself because I don’t have a particular weight I aim to reach. I just want to be comfortable in my skin. I want to be in my real body and I don’t need a scale to tell me when I’m not. I’m able to see it and feel it. So I don’t really know how much weight I’ve gained but I do know that I have gained weight and I’m very uncomfortable in my body not just because of the fibroids being larger but because every part of me is bigger right now. That has probably also contributed to exacerbating my depression. I’m constantly aware of my body and the extra weight in all my parts and it makes me antsy.
Today I am managing to control myself; but usually this antsy feeling plays with my head. I get frustrated. Stress builds. I get filled with feelings of self hate and I go looking for something to eat to fill the void. Usually there isn’t anything around to eat that’s so bad for me. I really shouldn’t gain weight on the things I eat; but somehow my system doesn’t appear to work normally anymore. I’m not sure what’s going on there but I’m concerned all the fasting I’ve done in the last couple of years might have damaged my system in some way that makes me gain weight more easily than is normal. The upside is that I also lose the weight pretty easily once I get serious about it. I’ve started the “getting back on track” mission today. I’m giving myself all of October to try to get myself back on the path of transformation. So far for today so good.
