Started July 30th 2014: I succeeded in my endeavor to avoid solids yesterday and so far today I have managed to avoid solids. I feel I should be able to finish today successfully as well; but I admit it’s been difficult. I had several moments when I really wanted to bite into something good. Interestingly I also had several moments when I was wishing I had some wine in the house so I could have a glass. I have never been a drinker per se; but I did at one time start drinking wine at least a few times per year. I’d buy a bottle of wine maybe two or three times per year; but after last December when the husband brought home some vodka that he received from his employer as a gift, I decided to stop drinking altogether because it seemed to me like my fibroids got way bigger as a result of drinking the vodka.
It’s kind of worrisome that I sometimes feel the urge to drink, especially considering that the amount of drinking I have done in my lifetime comes out to less than your average alcoholic beverage consuming adult consumes in a year. I never have any thought about drinking wine until I am feeling desperate for relief from stress or anxiety or other emotional pain or mental anguish. Then I start to want something to provide pleasure to offset the pain; and that’s not good I don’t think. It’s the same with the eating. When I start to get stressed out I start to want food. But I was able to conquer my impulses today so I’m glad about that.
Last night I did a bit of dancing. I had fun. Tonight I am dressed for another session but I don’t know if I will manage to get one in because I am very sleepy at the moment. I’m struggling to write this post. My brain is shutting down on me, trying to force me to get up and go to bed. I haven’t given my brain enough rest lately.
Resumed July 31 2014: Well, I fell asleep last night and didn’t get to finish this post. My brain shut down on me. So here I am today trying to get another day started. I succeeded in avoiding solids yesterday and the day before. I am having a protein fortified yogurt and a protein shake for breakfast. Hopefully these can keep me well enough sustained through the rest of the morning. I feel fairly well balanced at the moment. No heightened stress or anxiety. I am a little low on iron but hopefully I’ll feel a little less anemic after drinking the protein shake. It will provide me with 25% of my daily requirement for iron. I’ll have to pick up some iron supplements because I don’t think I get enough iron generally and certainly not while avoiding solids.
I didn’t get to do any dancing last night so I’ll have to try to make up for that some time this afternoon. My plans for today: try to get as many of my websites updated as I can by two o’clock breaking briefly to make a blended soup for lunch. Between two o’clock and four o’clock spend some time at the piano, do some artwork of some kind, practice singing in preparation for recording the two songs I have written, do a few rounds of my pseudo sled workout. After four o’clock, do some more work on one or more websites, write a few pages for at least one of the books I am actively working on, go out for a walk(?), make dinner, spend some time practicing dance, have a nice relaxing bath, go to bed.