This is my first real update since June-July 2015. Things have been good for the most part. I have been focused on other things and haven’t been worrying too much about my fibroids. They are still present and they do still cause me some discomfort from time to time; but I experience longer stretches of time where they don’t bother me.
I just had a doctor’s appointment last Wednesday. It was my first since last January. I’ve had appointments scheduled, but I cancelled them because I haven’t wanted to deal with all the stress that follows a doctors visit. But I finally went last week and they ran some of the same tests as on my last visit. They ran that CA-125 test that they use to scan for early signs of ovarian cancer in women who are high risk. When they ran it last time my numbers were outside the normal range so they had scheduled me to be screened for cancer, but the screening never took place. This time around my numbers are inside the normal range. They have said that doesn’t necessarily mean I don’t have ovarian cancer. Apparently the test isn’t reliable. But I’m choosing to believe that it is in fact reliable in my case.
The reason they are concerned is that they haven’t been able to clearly identify the bigger mass in my stomach as a fibroid. When they did a CT-Scan last year it was hard to tell because things were so crushed together in my stomach. One of the doctors, after examining me, thought the mass in question could be something other than a fibroid; but with the CT-Scan being unclear, the only way for them to know would have been to cut me open.
On the 20th of this month they will do another CT-Scan. I am hoping that things will be clearer this time around. In the hope of helping to make it more possible for them to see what is going on inside my stomach, I am planning to eat as little as I possibly can over the next 8 days. I considered doing a fast but I’m not sure it’s such a good idea. I think I need to be more careful about what I do to my body. The fasts which I completed in the past did help; but I think that it gets to a point where it’s dangerous to keep doing them. It impacts on other organs in your body. In my case, I have had to deal with issues resulting from too much protein as well as a deficiency in carbohydrates and other nutrients. It’s a little hard to balance things when you’re fasting, and so I think that I need to stop the lengthy fasts at least. I don’t think I need to do any more 14, 21 or 30 day fasts any time soon. I’m not even sure if a 7-day fast is a good idea. But I might attempt a 3-day leading up to the appointment, just in the hope that it might make things clearer to view in my stomach.
Diet-wise I’ve kept on track. I haven’t had any major setbacks. Admittedly I haven’t kept to my goal to eliminate bread and flour based product such as crackers; but I have been able to manage my consumption of these things so that it is never too much. I continue to avoid dairy, only occasionally sneaking a spoonful of ice-cream, whipped cream or goat cheese (never enough to really matter). I am no longer focusing on avoiding gluten because I’m not finding that it really has any profound benefit.
I am not taking anything special such as DIM supplements, blackstrap molasses, apple cider vinegar ( I use it in the process of making meals but I’m not drinking it like medicine daily).
I think just restricting my consumption of food to what is necessary to keep me sustained and give me enough energy to take care of the physical activities that I undertake daily does enough right now to keep things under control.
The monthly cycle
As for the contribution of the monthly cycle, that has been pretty erratic. For the most part I am not going through what I was going through a year ago with two cycles per month. I’ve had at most two bad episodes in the last 7 months where the cycle was heavy and lasted over 11 days. In September I did not have a cycle at all. It took a 45 day break between the end of August’s cycle and the beginning of October’s. I was very happy at the thought that it might be menopause knocking; but then someone asked some questions and I started to panic thinking it might be cancer. Amazingly and interestingly menopause and ovarian cancer share some of the same symptoms. So I was a little relieved when it came back in October; but now I’m hoping for another episode where it goes 45+ days. My stomach had gone down a lot at one point during this break period. It was as near to flat as it has been since this nonsense started.
The Hysterectomy question
I’ll admit I still think about it and wonder if I should have done it or if I should consider doing it; but if menopause is a year or two away for me, and if my health is okay (if I don’t have cancer), then I think I’ll just wait it out. I’ve gotten this far. Sure it’s difficult having to walk around with this stomach. But it’s not like I have an active social life anyway. And who cares what thoughts go through the mind of people I don’t know when they see me?
I am looking forward to improving my situation even more in 2016. My goals: increased fitness, better physical health both inside and out. The mental and emotional stuff gets tough. I have a lot of hurdles to clear with that; but that’s one of my goals as well–to become stronger mentally and emotionally–to own my age, because it’s an empowering thing to be at an age where you no longer have to prove anything to anyone.
**The featured picture was an experiment done last year to discover if a woman with large fibrods can get away with wearing a broad bet around her waist.