My fibroids today January 10th 2015

It’s been a while since my last update. I am still battling fibroids. My last update was about revisiting the hysterectomy question. That is still pending. I have a doctor’s appointment on Tuesday to get some tests done. Any decision regarding the hysterectomy will be made after the tests have been completed. The results will dictate the next move.

All things considered I have held myself together remarkably well since I was told there could be a possibility I might have a more serious problem on my hands than just fibroids. My anxiety is a little bit heightened today but I think it’s natural to grow a little more anxious as the test date approaches.

In the meantime I have been keeping the fibroids under control for the most part. It’s impossible to control them during that time of the month; but outside of that I’ve had some relief following a 16 day stint avoiding solid food. I haven’t really been eating much solid food since about the 8th of December. I’ve shed the extra few pounds I’d put on between September – November. My stomach is still all fibroids but it’s not causing me the extra discomfort where I can’t sit and where I feel things moving about when I lie down.

One thing I’ve been trying to get serious about is avoiding dairy. Like I mentioned in my last post I was making the mistake of consuming greek yogurt as a replacement for solid food and I was using whey protein in my meal replacement drinks. Whey protein is dairy based. I thought since I hadn’t been avoiding dairy in the past that dairy couldn’t be affecting my fibroids. The fibroids did shrink considerably before. But I’d never really consumed a lot of dairy products just generally anyway so my theory was flawed. So I’ve had to reassess. And I’ve been dairy free for the most part since it finally dawned on me that I needed to stop using yogurt and whey protein powder.

Things are a little unsettled for me at the moment. I feel like everything is on hold pending Tuesday’s test results. But I feel perfectly healthy for the most part. I don’t feel as if there is anything wrong with me. So I’m anticipating positive results. I’m looking forward to getting back on track by February/March (depends on if I go through with the hysterectomy or not). And I have my mind set on accomplishing a number of goals this year.

I’ve recently come to realize that a number of key people in my life have given me reputations based on how they perceive me. And their perception of me is pretty poor. Some of that is my responsibility. You have to be mindful how you represent yourself to people; but more often than not people misunderstand my motivation and intention behind some of the things I say, particularly when I’m talking about myself and my life. And their perception of me is based on their misunderstanding of where I’m coming from and what I’m really about. Their perception of me is in no way based on my truth. But I can’t change these people’s perception and I won’t try. One of my goals is to get to a point where I don’t have people in my life who try to force me to see myself through their belittling eyes.