I have wanted to try my hand at baking bread for a long time now. I love bread. Not necessarily the sliced bread they sell in the store. That I can do without; but from time to time I get to craving bread. I don’t eat as much bread as I would if I felt like I could eat bread freely.
Part of my plan for my life transformation attempt is to do a lot more cooking. The purpose of that is so that I can have more control over what I’m eating and also so that I can work towards improving the quality of my life. As it is I generally dedicate very little of my time to the care of myself and my family. I often don’t even make time to clean, do my laundry, do the dishes. Not that housework is something that improves quality of life; but a bright, clean, happy and healthy home surely does help towards that goal; and although my home is never necessarily filthy that’s only because we’re all so good at keeping to our corners. The living room will get dusty but we can go a year without it ever getting seriously messy and that’s not because I clean it. We’re just never in it because I work from an alcove just off the living room and need my “peace and quiet” so my husband generally watches the television upstairs in our bedroom and my son hardly ever comes out of his room. The atmosphere in my home, which I am responsible for creating, isn’t particularly warm and inviting; and I think that is something I need to make it a priority to change. I have allowed depression to control my life for way too long.
So one of the first things I want to do is finally try my hand and making bread. I’m thinking about doing that on Saturday. So I’m looking for easy bread recipes. From what I can tell bread is perfectly fine to eat if you have fibroids. Maybe not white bread — that seems to be on a good few lists of foods to avoid if you have fibroids; but you know how it is with these lists. There is so much contradiction.
What I want to do is try to find a recipe that uses an alternative to white flour and that does not use dairy. I don’t know if that is possible; but I will be looking around for some recipe ideas. Hopefully by the time Saturday comes around I’ll still be in the mood to try my hand at baking bread. My moods continue to go up and down; but I guess I need to be realistic about things. This isn’t something I’m trying to do to prove anything to anybody. I don’t need to be worrying about looking like a fool because I say I’m going to do something and I don’t do it. I need to keep reminding myself that this is not a game I’m playing in the hope of winning some kind of prize. I’m not going to wake up in a week a completely different person. I’m not going to undo a lifetime of bad programming in one year. This is a process. My moods will fluctuate. My motivation will be high one moment and low the next. It’s going to take a long time and a lot of work to achieve the balance I’m after.
The image of the bread is from pixabay.com
