Looks like I’ll make it through Day 2 of my solids free June mission. It hasn’t been easy. I’ve been having all kinds of cravings. My weirdest craving today was for cinnamon. But I’m thinking I can probably still have cinnamon without compromising the mission. Problem is the hubby is starting to think I’m addicted to cinnamon and so he doesn’t want me to buy any. (I’m not addicted to cinnamon. But I did finish off 2 bottles of ground cinnamon in 1 month. And I mostly just ate it by itself sprinkled on nothing.)
I haven’t really eaten much today. I’ve been out and about most of the day accompanying my son on some errands. I blended a little bit of almond butter and a piece of aloe in almond milk for breakfast. For the rest of the day I’ve been eating nut butters to stave off hunger, and I’ve been drinking water.
I didn’t have the kale and spinach soup for dinner last night. I am hoping to have it for dinner tonight. But if I don’t feel particularly hungry for the rest of the day I’ll probably just skip having anything else to eat.
Why am I attempting another 30 days of not eating solid foods again?
I’ve asked myself this question a few times today. Sometimes I forget what this is all about. Whenever I have a craving for solid food it becomes less clear to me why it’s necessary to go another round of 7 days much less the 30 days I’m attempting. But I have to remember that I am a much happier person when I feel physically comfortable. And although I’ll always have some physical discomfort as long as I have fibroids of a prominent size, it is possible for me to be more physically comfortable than I feel at present. And that requires the avoidance of solid foods for as long a stretch as I can manage. And it’s worth it to me because every aspect of my life improves when I feel a little closer to my pre-fibroid norm.
Cut to 9:17PM
Having said the above about how the avoidance of solid food is worth it, I made rice with red beans for dinner for my husband and son. There are very few foods that I have difficulty resisting. There are probably no foods that I can claim to “love”; but there are some foods that are hard for me not to eat if those foods are available for me to eat. Rice by itself is one. Rice with red beans is even more difficult to resist than rice by itself.
So I was again questioning why I’m doing this thing. And although I resisted temptation to try a spoonful of the rice, I’m not at this very moment convinced that it really is worth it to put myself through this torture depriving myself of the pleasure of eating the foods I would like to eat.
