I am still on track with my mission to avoid solid food for the 30 days of June 2015. But it’s getting progressively more difficult to stick this out. I’m bored with eating blended soups and nut butters. But I do feel significantly more comfortable in my body right now. And although I have patches of time where I feel a little low in spirit, I’m in a good place for the most part. I’ve been feeling more playful, more energized and more positive.
For these past couple of days it’s been a little difficult to feel particularly good in light of what recently took place in South Carolina. It’s a pretty depressing state of affairs and it makes me fear for the people I love. But I know I can’t just sit and dwell on my fears. It’s not easy to release my fears at such times when I’m reminded that tragedy can strike at any time, but I have to keep trying.
I imagine I should be able to get through today. But I did almost decide to quit the mission earlier this morning. I was struck by an impulse to say screw it and go on a solid food fridge hunt. I even motioned to get up and act on the impulse; but I didn’t. So I think at this point I’m in control of my impulses to quit. If I quit the mission it will be a consciously made decision rather than an impulsive act. I want to try to stick it out. I’m not sure it’s necessary for me to stick it out; but I only have 11 days to go so I might as well try. Not that 11 days is minor. It’s still a long way to go. But right this very moment I feel like I can do it. Maybe I’ll feel differently in an hour.
The finished blended broccoli yellow squash and kale soup from Day 17. I did not suffer any bad reactions to the broccoli so that’s a good thing.
I had blended butternut and yellow squash soup on Day 18; but I didn’t bother with the picture taking. I was way too hungry to keep myself back taking pictures.
I’ll probably have butternut squash soup again today. Depends on if I don’t get a chance to go to the supermarket. If I do get a chance I’ll try to pick up something different. Beet and carrot blended soup? We’ll see what happens.
