I am finally back online after being offline since last week Thursday. I have been moving from the South to the Mid West in the US. Just got my Internet set back up about 30 minutes ago.
I am still on track with the juice fast; but to be quite honest with you, I have been growing more and more eager for it to end and have been contemplating breaking it. I have been losing weight despite my best efforts to avoid any weight loss and the hubby has been complaining about it. It’s been a bit difficult because it adds a kind of stress I don’t really need.
I have struggled for so many years of my life with trying to look this way or that way to please this person or that person. Right now I just want to be able to concentrate on trying to get rid of my fibroids. I don’t want to be self conscious about not looking “sexy” but my husband keeps pointing out the fact. I guess it’s obvious that he values me only according to my degree of sex appeal as he measures it and right now he sees me as having no sex appeal and that’s a crime as far as he’s concerned. I’m committing a crime against him by not keeping my body at the size that he finds attractive. It makes no difference that I am only trying to do what I can to shrink my fibroids so I don’t have to go through the physical, mental and emotional strains that I’ve been suffering for the last 5 years.
As far as the fibroids go, I went out to the store yesterday in a t-shirt I would not have been able to go out in when I started the fast. My stomach wasn’t flat but I don’t think people would have thought I was pregnant yesterday. My stomach does feel softer, like I can feel more than just fibroids when I press it which isn’t something I could have said before.
Here is a photo which I took Tuesday July 31st. That was on Day 9 of the fast.
I will be taking my comparison photo in the yellow dress at the end of the fast if I can stick it out for another 9 days. We’re even more out of money right now than when I first started the fast. Things are kind of crazy and this fast is an expense I really can’t afford right now; but if I can get the drinks I need for the next 9 days I am going to try to stick it through to the end.